A new Day

Woke up feeling abit wiser today. Soulsicle msged me early in the morning realising that he will be out of work in a few months due to the change in the management. It starts me thinking that maybe I've been putting the pressure on him too much.

While getting dressed up for work, standing infront of the mirror, I can't help but think how different Raya would be this year. Can't help but start imaginig how it would be like to dressed up infront of the mirror with soulsicle in our own house. Unbelievable it seems so real. Yes I can already see us as a married couple.

I love him very very much and he loves me more. He made me realise how wonderful it is to be in love and never felt the hurt anymore. He was there for me at every step of the way, not once complained or gave up with my tantrums throwing. Maybe he was sent to me to help me get through this life. Cos I know it will not get anymore easier..........

The tears just won't dry

Lost in a memory of love in the past. Haunted by mistakes we never thought we made. Could never let go even though its the right thing to do. Being stubborn as always. Refusing to listen just wants my own way. Hate the fact that life still has to go on. This path I've choosen was forced in my hand.

I can't breathe can't stand the pain. But still refuse to accept that whats done cannot be undone. I hate the thought that I'll never get to see him again. Can't get over the fact that he is gone forever. It hurts more than a broken heart. But if my heart has been broken how could it hurts more?

The Way My Life Goes

The feelings inside I feel seems to go all over the place. Not sure to be happy, sad or angry. Am thankful for the everyday I get to live my life but at times I feel; is this it?

Each day every on of my friends is making a journey towards a new life with their partner. And each day I lose theses friends of mine. They are busy with married life having to cook for their husband or spending time with their in-laws and new families.

And ME? Still struggling to make sense of what life really is offering me. The journey each day just gets tougher and tougher. Not sure how long I can hold on any longer.

Breakaway

Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray, I could break away

CHORUS
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane
Far away And break away


Buildings with a hundred floors,
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
ButI gotta keep movin on, movin on,
Fly away, Break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
Take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness & into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away