Death is peaceful.....

Death is peaceful.......living is harder.........

I have been hurt too many time....disappointment???countless.....
How could people expect me to just take it easy and let it go. Don't they understand??? Its not once or twice. How come I'm the one who always have to give in. How come its ok if others are free last minute but not me? I guess I'm nothing. I don't belong here. Maybe its good that I'm leaving. That way I won't feel left out when I'm not invited.

Maybe I'm not a nice person. If I'm not, why the hell do I always have to be the one to give in.
Maybe I am really not nice. Maybe I am a dislikeable person.

I feel like I don't belong anywhere. My bestfriends are busy with their own life and have no time for me. And now this........am I being too sensitive?? But if I ignore my feelings then whos going to care? I can't take it anymore. I hate this!!