Motherhood

I am finally adjusting to Motherhood. 3 weeks have gone just like that.

1st week was so difficult! Besides trying to recover from my pain, I have to endure new pain. Breastfeeding! Baby just wants to be fed every hour it seems. I could not think about the future but just take things day by day. But at the same time, I enjoy my time bonding with her. Everytime I hold her in my arms, I love her more everyday. No denying I was hit with post natal depression. However, it was never hating or blaming her for my pain. All I could think of was how could anyone want to go through the pain again and again. How could Mum had done it all be herself. I am lucky I have Soul who is very hands on with baby gerl. I can never imagine how those women who does not have the supportive husbands.

2nd week got better. I was slowly recovering and getting back my strengh. I was able to move around more. My body was already adjusting to the sleepless nights and taking naps in the afternoon. This time round, I keep thinking on how to leave baby gerl and get back to work. I love her more and more every minute and can't imagine leaving her for a minute. She is just so adorable! Soul has taken the time to learn to bath her and he so enjoy getting the time to bond with her every morning during their bath time.

Now in our 3rd week, we love every minute we get with her. I know its tough for Soul at times to leave for work cos he just loves her so much and I know he feels like he is missing alot when not spending times with her. Maybe thats why he does not mind waking up in the middle of the night and changing her. I love him lots too. I could never imagine life without him. Heck, I don't think I would be doing this if not for him.

We can't wait for her to grow up but at the same time, we are scared, and wish at times that she will not grow up. We keep taking photos of her just so we can keep every memory of her alive.