Too many things...........

Man its coming to May already!!! Where did the time go??!!!!

Shit there is so many things needs to be done. Stressed!! Suuuppeer stressed!!!

Got my cheerleading performance coming up, got to plan for my sport camp, hockey tournament coming up and the kids need to train, progress reports are due soon!!!!! Ahhhhhhhh suuupppeerr ddduupppeer stressed!!!!!

Went for retail theraphy last sat before floor hockey training. Orchard rd was so empty on a saturday morning. Had our early lunch at my new favourite chicken restaurant, BBQ Chick at cineleisure. Whats more, for that day, they had a luch special where you just order their main dish and it comes together with a soup, drink and desert with no extra charge!!! Its cheaper than swensen ok!! We only spent $29.90 for both our meals. Yummy!!! The chickens are cooked in olive oil so its healthy and not so oily.






Soul can't wait to enjoy his soup

My hot yummy chicken
Soul had finished his salad so left the sandwich and fries
Favourite colour for desert!!!


I am sooooo looking forward to June Hols. Can't wait to go Bintan and chill!!!

Gerl's Night Out

Met up with my gerlies yest. (Ahui you owe us one man!!) We had fishes with fries with calamaris with prawn fettucini and we add lots of laughter and gigglies. Hahaha...I forgot how much havoc we can create together. (Ahui, I bet with you around it will be more chaos!!) It didn't matter that we are 5 years older, or that one of us are married and we are all busy with our working life. I feel that time didn't change much for us. Which is good!!! Since the 3 of us lives in CCK, we plan to meet up more often!!

On another note, came home to find that Puteh's (my pet hamster)front leg got blood. EEyyuww!!! Freaked out there and then, called Soul sobbing my eyes out. Soul manage to calm me down and we brought her to the vet. Luckily got a vet near here! But the vet said there's nothing much can be done cos its probably a harmonal thingy. She did give us medication though and me and Soul has been pampering Puteh the whole day today.

Physically, Emotionally, Mentally

Exhaustion finally took over. It won over me physically, mentally, emotionally. Slept like a baby last nigght with no weird dreams or whatsoever.

It sux big time when a love you had for someone over 20 years ends and turns into hatred. When all this while you've been fighting together ends up fighting at each other. Whats more you dragged other people in and getting them to fight for you. Its just crazy and hurtful. Please let this be a lesson to all.

Seeing all this happening around us, really helps me to see my relationship with Soul clearly. Can't deny that I always worry that things won't work my way. It makes me see the mistakes that I don't want to repeat the same. Makes me really wants to work harder on our relationships and marriage (to come). So please slap me if you know I'm doing the wrong things to Soul. Wahahahaha....

On a happy note, got a big surprise appraisal bonus due to my hardwork last year. Not telling you guys the grade, but believe me it was really hardwork, with perseverence, never giving up, and doing it for the love of doing it for the children. Hmmmm wonder if I could acheive it again this year. Hahahahah greedy greedy..... Can't wait to shop!!!!

P.S. Already sign up a package for our indoor, outdoor wedding shots. So yah the weding is on. Just wait for the date!!!

Step Up 2

Went to watch Step up 2 yesterday. Honestly, I felt Step up 1 was better but Soul definately enjoy watching it cos of all the dance moveesss. Yes the dance was awesome to watch, but no its not something I enjoy (unless of cos Soul is doing it!)

Yes it was one of Soul's passion in life (b4 he met moi), but I guess Passion is not enough to live by in Singapore. Cos honestly, Arts will never be as big as in other countries. Why? Cos I feel, we are too small (in numbers and sizes) to be BIG. Yes we have the Singapore Idols (Taufik is still the best!!) and yes we might have won the Asian Idol, but face it, we have no HOLLYWOOD to turn to to make it BIG! There is no way you can just be a dancer and be successful in Singapore.

Swarmed and stressed

Been super swarmed with work tha I had no time to log onto the internet everyday. Super tired after work everyday that I feel like a zombie. And we spent our saturdays, working/coaching floor hockey for Special O. So all I do at home is shower, sleep, shower, sleep. Haiiii....

Me and Soul managed to have a short getaway to ourselves this Chinese New Year. (Nop I'm not going to tell where and what we did ;) )

In between all the workload and stressed form school, I've realised that I have to finalise the date of our BIG day to our familes ASAP. Then I have to look for 'mak andam', the wedding cards, go for the marriage course....... AAAAHHHHGGGHHHHH and the money is still not enogh according to my calculation!!!!

Ok I am beyond stress!!!! I am sooooo scared right now thinking bout it!!! I don't know if I can do this!!!!

No More Shopping

NO MORE SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Tribute to Heath Ledger

A Tribute to Heath Ledger





Its so sad when a young life is taken. When there is so much that still needs to be done, so many things still to be seen. Its sad the way you just leave us, its not fair, but that's how life is. You've moved some people's life, yet you couldn't find the settlement in your own. Where did it all go wrong? Was it hard being in your shoes? Was it that lonely? Did you know it would come to this? We'll never know would we......





As the world mourn the loss of a 'star', ur family mourns much more. They mourn for a son, a brother and a father. Life will go on and we'll slowly, but surely, move on. Another star will be born everyday.





May you rest in peace, the peace you have always been looking for. And may your memories live on, in the hearts of people you love, and the people who loves you........

In Loving Memory

Heathcliff Andrew Ledger

4 April 1979 - 22 January 2008

Ice cream yummy

You Are A Chocolate Ice Cream Girl

Dramatic. Powerful. Flirty.

What Flavor Ice Cream Girl Are You?

Fed-up

How do I put it into words so that he knew how I'm feeling. He always said that I have to talk and tell him how I feel but whats the point cos even if I tell him how I feel it won't stop him from doing what he likes. Whats the point of talking when I still have to see it from your point of view!

You know how I feel about your "hobby" yet it will always come before me!!

Sick of staying home worrying bout him. Can't take it anymore. My friends has become his. The rest has desert me. I'm left with no one to confide cos everyone keep saying he's so good to me.

Maybe I should get a new hobby. Maybe that way I'll be more busy than him. Maybe that way I will have my own life. Maybe that way........life would not suck so much right now!

I envy others get to go on hols. Yet I'm stuck here cos I'm trying so hard to save up. Enuf is enuf. Going to put me first from now......

Met Mam Sally

Had a wonderful lunch meet up with Mam Sally yesterday. Me and the "elite" staff met up with her at Bukit Timah Mad Jack. We had lots of laughs and full of fooooddd!!! I miss being in the senior level! Of cos the 4 guys are always being silly but I guess it adds up all the fun.

The food was yummy and the company was just fabulous. Me and Soul miss her alot (Mam Sally of cos!). Despite her nagging (to me especially) at the end of the day she always make sense. Haiiii.... she always has lots od stories that she loves to tell us so we can learn from her. It was always easy to talk to her bout the kids.

I've been neglecting my camera lately. Been bringing it all around but never made use of it. Haiii....

TIRED!!!!

Its on the 2nd week of the year and I am damn sick and tired already. Got lots of things to do but just got no motivation. ALthough I love my new kids, afternoon session is just not for me. I still dread going to work man! I miss my afternoon naps!!!

Countdown at Sentoso

We spent the New Year's Eve at Sentosa Sioso Beach Party and had a blast. Soul's capoeira gang were invited to do performance at the beach party so we had everything free!!!Can you believe it, the entry tix cost $35!!! And it does not include food and drinks!!!! But the place was awsome. There were lots of entertainment, food, hot peeps (like us ;)) hahahaha. The best thing is the music was non-stop!!! It was really great!!! Although by 2 am, all of us were dead tired already. The poor boys had to perform every hour so they were really exhausted. But I guess it was worth it cos they were a hit!!

2008 here we go!!!!

Damn we are hours away to the new year....

I am soooo not ready for this. I have not prepared for anything for school!!! Hai.... Time to reflect what happened this year and yet I just can't bring myself to do it.

I'll miss what I've lost but I'll look forward to more things going to happen. Marriage and divorce I've accepted as part of life and its bound to happen sooner or later. Friendship forever means only be kept in the heart.

Resolutions have been made. I hope I'll be able to keep it.....

One Week Left

Oh man! Where did the time go??? Can you believe it?? We are left with only 1 more week before the new year!!!!AAAahhhhh!!!! 2008!!! Yikes!!!! School is going to start soon!! Boohooo I'm not done with my holidays yet!!!

On another note, me & Soul has been slacking around like mad. We so did enjoy our hols!!! Went to The Cathay today to catch Nicholas Cage in action in National Treasure part 2. It was quite an exciting movie and especially very puzzley. We loved Alvin & The chipmunk which we caught a week ago. They are soooo cute. I am so in love with their voice. Hahahahhaa. Wish I could keep them. But right now I am very happy taking care of my pet hamster. Next one we would love to catch is I am Legend. Honestly I am not a fan of zombies/alien kind of movie but I Looovvee Will Smith. He is just soooo cooolll!!!

Spent my bonus like mad man!! (Of cos already put aside a sum for the wedding.) People keep nagging us not to spent so much and save more but helllooo!! Its our hard earn money! If we don't spend it now when then?? Anyway no mattewr how much we save it will never be enough! So I bought my adidas shoes yeah!!!

















Cool right my shoes!!! We also upgraded our PSP so now can play my Sims 2-Castaway. Cannot put it down I am sooo hooked! Also finally got my V9!!!! Hahahaha sooo happy!! Free somemore, courtesy of my godpa!!!


















Wahahahaha...my christmas wishes has been coming through!!!!

Oh ya! A shout out to Rach & Isk for their big day!!! Finally!!! Hahahhaha ;)

A Blast from the Past???

Saw something that affected me terribly and no matter how hard I tried to push it away from my mind, it just keep coming back, haunting.....

Whenever you thought you get over it, you realise you will never get over it again. AM i making sense?? Cos I can't seem to make sense of myself.

Life is full of regrets. You can never turn back the time. You can never make things right again. No matter how life seems to move on, seems to be normal again, there is a small part that will always remember what you've lost, what you should had done but you didn't.

Among the feelings of happiness, the tears still threaten to fall.

Yeayyy Sentosa!!!

Can you believe it, I was just complaining that day regarding the weather and yesterday the sun came out to play!!!! Had a blast at Sentosa with Soul and my bro. Woke up to a bright sunshiny morning. We quickly gamble to head out to Sentosa. Mind you the last time we woke up to a shiny morn, it rained when we reach Sentosa. But thank god, the sun manage to stay out for quite some time. There was only a short drizzle while we were there. Soul sooo enjoyed himself cos he was able to do his flips, which he hadn't done for sooo long!! So cute!!

Posing with my new shades

Soul doing his flips

Check out the sexy but

All mine!


















Today we went for our daily run. Ok lah its not an everyday thingy but we've been doing it at least 2/3 times a week eversince the school hols starts. Trying very hard to keep ourselves fit hehehehe.... We've been running aroubd my neighbourhood, changing the route everytime. In fact we've been doing it really good cos our timing remain the same even though we've been taking a different and longer route everytime. Yeay!!! Only today I think we went a bit faster than I intended and the route is definately long (Soul estimated 3Km) i started having difficulty in breathing at the end of the run. (Had not had it for like since sec sch when I was really running while training for sports event) Luckily Soul did not panic cos I definately was!! It was damn scary siak and for the first time in my life I thought I saw Death. Even though Soul ask if I want to sit down for awhile, I refused to. I feared if I did I would just collapse and damn if I were to collapse in public. Seriously must try the route again......

Motorola V9

Booo hooo....

Been going all around town today to look for my Motorola V9 in Mahagony colour but it seems that they have not produce it yet for selling, only the dummy phones for show and I ssooo want it!! Bcos I couldn't get the phone all my shopping mood gone. Nothing seems to caught my eye!!!!

Whats more due to the weather me and Soul can't spend the days at Sentosa!!!! Hai... we've been to all the shopping centres and we are sooo getting bored. I've even made it a hobby for us to collect/take pictures of 25 decorated Chrismas trees all around Singapore just to keep ourselves entertain.

We went to watch 'The Golden Compass' and it was packed!!! The show was a bit dregy cos there were lots of talks and talkings bout things you won't understand unless you read bout it. But the fightings were cool and the animals are soo cute and Nicole Kidman is just drop dead gorgeous plus excellent acting!!! Wouldn't it be cool if we really have a daemon in real life??!!!

Been Gone for awhile

Ok sorry for being missing for awhile. Well now I'm back!!!

Where do I start?? Hmmmmm so much to update....

Ok lets start with school. Its the school holiday and we are having our one month hols!!! Yeah!!!! Before that there was too much chaos in school cos we got our class placement for next year. There was a lot of unhappiness around the school for that day. Too many disagreements and too much tears. Ok enough talking bout others.
I will be missing my senior level whom I've been working soo hard for the past 2 years buiding them up, becos I will be teaching in a Junior level class. My pupils will be age from 10 to 12 (I think!) Boo hooo this holiday already missing my kids. Not only will I be missing my class but I'll be missing my whole morning admirers (whos been admiring me/my sense of fashion every morn) cos I will be going to the afternoon session. Boo Hooo no more lunching with friends or shopping after school. Consolation: Soul is also in the afternoon session!!! Yeah we plan to have breakfast date before school ;) Of cos not only him lah, got lots of other yummy peeps who is gonna keep me company like; Kaiyah, Kak Ratna, Chris, Joy, Kak Su, Neeta and many more. Actually after the whole day of crying I began to see the positive side of it and actually kind of looking forward to the new class. Ok lah all this positive feeling happen also because I went to see my P and ask hime why I was taken out from the Senior Level. Got positive answers from him so happy loh!

Ok another story: went to ST James last Fri with Neeta adn Kak Su and partners. Was looking forward to a nice time of just dancing and chilling. Met up at 10 and head out together. There was many rooms try out but the one room we want to go is the one room that we were not allowed. Can you believe it, the BITCH Door said we were not executive enough. EXECUTIVE MY ASS!!! We were all dressed nice ok and the guys were in shirts and shoes unlike some of the APEKS she let in. Come on lah, how could you judge what they work as by their attires or looks!! Stupid BITCH!!! We finally realise and found out that she is actually racist...to her own skin colour people!!!! She actually only allows the CHINESE in and not MALAYS or dark skin colours!! FUCKED UP rite?!! AND the room we are talking about is THE BOILER ROOM which features Soul and R&B songs. ANd the acts are performed by a group of MALAYS. Anyway if you people are interested to check out the BITCH, she is actually BIG & FAT!! So frustrating and upset!!!

Moving on: Me and Soul are enjoying our hols. We just got paid and SOUL pampered me by getting me a new PINK Bikini!!! I LIKE!!!! It is really awsome!!! Hmmmm maybe I will take a pic of it and post it up ya. We are trying VERY VERY VERY hard not to spent so much but how could we??? Its Christmas season and there is so many sales!!!! AARrRRRGGHhhhh!!!!! We are planning to go Karaoke with Khairizal this sat so it looks like I will be sitting at home for the next 2 days ;(

When Death is so near

Losing someone is hard but its harder to just let go

Prefect's Camp

We had a camp for all the prefect's in school last weekend. It was so relaxing cos we didn't have much things to do. Most of the prefects are very independent so we only need to make sure they keep tracks of their things.

But it was quite horrible for me cos I was sick. Booo hooo. Was trying very hard to keep my spirits up for the kids. We broght them to watch the movie, 'The Game Plan' (which was sooo cute, I think I'm in love with the Rock.) and then we had lunch at Seoul Garden (my favourite!!). Everything was paid for!!! Tak ke best!

We actually planned to go clubbing again with Neeta, Farhan and Kak Sue but I was sooo cannot make it!! Got back home and just flat out till the next day. Caught the fever the whole day (luckily was at home!) so I just lie around the whole day. Weak like mad siak!!