Amoi is coming back! I can't believe of all people I would miss her. Naz is right. Our relationship with her is full of love and hate. Hahahahaha. Her baby is so cute!!
Can't wait to catch up with her....
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Sunday, April 22, 2007
PAIN
The girl felt the pain. Its been quite awhile. She tried to stand it, hoping it will go away. The pain consume her, till she could no longer take it.
She went to see the doctor. The doctor gave her the bad news. It seems there is no way to make the pain go away. She will have to die.
Alone she sat. Figuring what to do. Would it be easier to just jump off or will it hurt less to drown? As she sat, as alone as she felt, she visions the people she love best.
She could see her mummy's sadness, she could see her daddy's fear. She could see her grandma's heartbroken and she saw her grandpa's tears. She saw her brothers and sisters, feeling lost and not knowing why. She knew her aunts and uncles and their children too. They will feel the lost and maybe shed a tear. Will her friends miss her? Will they think of her and offer their prayers?
In this empty world, where cruel and hurt is everydays thingy. How were she to survive? When the pain just refuse to go away.......
She went to see the doctor. The doctor gave her the bad news. It seems there is no way to make the pain go away. She will have to die.
Alone she sat. Figuring what to do. Would it be easier to just jump off or will it hurt less to drown? As she sat, as alone as she felt, she visions the people she love best.
She could see her mummy's sadness, she could see her daddy's fear. She could see her grandma's heartbroken and she saw her grandpa's tears. She saw her brothers and sisters, feeling lost and not knowing why. She knew her aunts and uncles and their children too. They will feel the lost and maybe shed a tear. Will her friends miss her? Will they think of her and offer their prayers?
In this empty world, where cruel and hurt is everydays thingy. How were she to survive? When the pain just refuse to go away.......
Friday, April 13, 2007
An Uncle
He was born on the 10th of Oct. Grew up in a big family. The youngest of the 8 siblings.
He grew up loved by many. Pampered but not spoiled. He never knew the hard life the way his sisters and brothers did, but he knew to be contented with what he has.
He was popular in school. A normal guy, who enjoys playing soccer but lazy when it comes to his studies.
He fell in love at a yong age. When boys are still boys. He was forced into marriage when he was only on the brink of manhood. Forced to grow up when he wasn't ready. Too much responsibilities, too much problems. He couldn't handle it all.
He wasn't smart but he was nice. He was love by many more. He turned to people he thought he could trust. He was led by them to things he shouldn't have touched.
It ruined his life. He ruined himself. He lost so much more than just amount. But one thing still stay true, a mother's love he could never loose.
He tried so hard to remain clean. It was so hard, it wasn't gonna be easy. He couldn't stay strong cos his problems and dilemmas just won't go away.
He died on 12th September at the age of 36. He left behind a wife who misses him so much. He left behind a mother who won't stop shedding her tears thinking of him. He also left behind a Niece who adores him lots, who misses him every single day, who had loved him as mush as she would have loved a bro, who will never forgive the people that had made his life in this world a living hell.......
He grew up loved by many. Pampered but not spoiled. He never knew the hard life the way his sisters and brothers did, but he knew to be contented with what he has.
He was popular in school. A normal guy, who enjoys playing soccer but lazy when it comes to his studies.
He fell in love at a yong age. When boys are still boys. He was forced into marriage when he was only on the brink of manhood. Forced to grow up when he wasn't ready. Too much responsibilities, too much problems. He couldn't handle it all.
He wasn't smart but he was nice. He was love by many more. He turned to people he thought he could trust. He was led by them to things he shouldn't have touched.
It ruined his life. He ruined himself. He lost so much more than just amount. But one thing still stay true, a mother's love he could never loose.
He tried so hard to remain clean. It was so hard, it wasn't gonna be easy. He couldn't stay strong cos his problems and dilemmas just won't go away.
He died on 12th September at the age of 36. He left behind a wife who misses him so much. He left behind a mother who won't stop shedding her tears thinking of him. He also left behind a Niece who adores him lots, who misses him every single day, who had loved him as mush as she would have loved a bro, who will never forgive the people that had made his life in this world a living hell.......
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Good News
Just came back, thought of taking a nap but realise that so much time will be wasted thus spent the time WISELY by going into the net and read up some OLD emails and blogs ;)
Feelings are quite on a roller coaster roll. One moment could be UP and the next would be DOWN. I think too many things going through my mind.
Met up wif Rach (finally!!!) for lunch. Talked bout her getting married. So happy and excited for her!! Can't wait to see her in her wedding gown ;)
Got 3 weddings to look forward to; Naz's, Alulu's and Rach's. Eh anyone else getting married???
Other good news, Amoi will be coming back at the end of this month. Hopefully will bring her baby along. Can't wait to see her. Who would have tot she could be missed. hehehe....
Got a big decision to make so got to think about it carefully. Worry and scared that I won't be able to go through with it.....
Feelings are quite on a roller coaster roll. One moment could be UP and the next would be DOWN. I think too many things going through my mind.
Met up wif Rach (finally!!!) for lunch. Talked bout her getting married. So happy and excited for her!! Can't wait to see her in her wedding gown ;)
Got 3 weddings to look forward to; Naz's, Alulu's and Rach's. Eh anyone else getting married???
Other good news, Amoi will be coming back at the end of this month. Hopefully will bring her baby along. Can't wait to see her. Who would have tot she could be missed. hehehe....
Got a big decision to make so got to think about it carefully. Worry and scared that I won't be able to go through with it.....
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Depress
Its the weekend.....can't sleep.....
Have been reading this book title "The Pact" by Jodi Picoult. The behind summary of the book goes like this:
"The Hartes and the Golds have lived next door to each other for eighteen years. They have shared everything from family picnics to chicken pox - so its no surprise that in high school Chris and Emily's friendship blossoms into something more.
When the midnight calls come in from the hospital, no one is prepared: Emily is dead at seventeen from a gunshot wound to the head, inflicted by Chris as part of an apparent suicide pact. He tells police the next bullet was meant for himself. A local detective has her doubts. And the Hartes and Golds must face every parent's worst nightmare and question: do we really know our children at all? "
Have been taking my time on reading this book, absorbing every single words. Everytime I read it, I ponder on my thoughts. Suicide has been something very close to my heart. I've always thought about it eversince I knew anything about it. Not that I ever thought of killing myself (I hate pain so can't bear to do anthing painful to myself). But I've always wondered what is it really like to be so depressed that u feel as if only death is the way out. What makes u be so brave to kill/hurt urself when u are so coward to face the world? Is facing the world really hurts more than death? How does it feel at that last moment before u die? Doesn't it hurt? Will u be remembered for ur suicide or for dying because u can't face the world anymore? Will u be remembered at all??
Reading this book makes me question more. How does the author know the precise words to use for the characters. Especially when the characters are recalling certain period of their time. How was she able to espress the feelings so clearly?
"Emily tossed a pebble into the lake, breaking the smooth surface. It was a strange feeling, knowing that her life would always intertwined with Chris - God, it had been since the day she was born - and yet realizing that she was still secretly hoping for an out. Everyone expected Chris and Emily to be together forever, but forever had always seemed a long way off.
She pressed her hand to her stomach. Forever had a real time line now.
Emily supposed then, the answer was yes. She could marry Chris. The alternative would be explaining that she cared for him like a sister, like a friend, not necessarily like a wife. And she would see his face whiten, feel his heart crumble in her hand.
She did not love Chris enough to marry him, but she loved him too much to tell him that. "
Isn't it funny how in most suicide case involves love. And when love is suppose to define as a feeling of passion, happy and being on top of the world, it also brings all the negative feelings of jealousy, disappointments and fear........
Have been reading this book title "The Pact" by Jodi Picoult. The behind summary of the book goes like this:
"The Hartes and the Golds have lived next door to each other for eighteen years. They have shared everything from family picnics to chicken pox - so its no surprise that in high school Chris and Emily's friendship blossoms into something more.
When the midnight calls come in from the hospital, no one is prepared: Emily is dead at seventeen from a gunshot wound to the head, inflicted by Chris as part of an apparent suicide pact. He tells police the next bullet was meant for himself. A local detective has her doubts. And the Hartes and Golds must face every parent's worst nightmare and question: do we really know our children at all? "
Have been taking my time on reading this book, absorbing every single words. Everytime I read it, I ponder on my thoughts. Suicide has been something very close to my heart. I've always thought about it eversince I knew anything about it. Not that I ever thought of killing myself (I hate pain so can't bear to do anthing painful to myself). But I've always wondered what is it really like to be so depressed that u feel as if only death is the way out. What makes u be so brave to kill/hurt urself when u are so coward to face the world? Is facing the world really hurts more than death? How does it feel at that last moment before u die? Doesn't it hurt? Will u be remembered for ur suicide or for dying because u can't face the world anymore? Will u be remembered at all??
Reading this book makes me question more. How does the author know the precise words to use for the characters. Especially when the characters are recalling certain period of their time. How was she able to espress the feelings so clearly?
"Emily tossed a pebble into the lake, breaking the smooth surface. It was a strange feeling, knowing that her life would always intertwined with Chris - God, it had been since the day she was born - and yet realizing that she was still secretly hoping for an out. Everyone expected Chris and Emily to be together forever, but forever had always seemed a long way off.
She pressed her hand to her stomach. Forever had a real time line now.
Emily supposed then, the answer was yes. She could marry Chris. The alternative would be explaining that she cared for him like a sister, like a friend, not necessarily like a wife. And she would see his face whiten, feel his heart crumble in her hand.
She did not love Chris enough to marry him, but she loved him too much to tell him that. "
Isn't it funny how in most suicide case involves love. And when love is suppose to define as a feeling of passion, happy and being on top of the world, it also brings all the negative feelings of jealousy, disappointments and fear........
Sunday, March 18, 2007
10 more weeks to go
Damn! The holiday is over and I feel as if it was suppose to have just begun. Had been having restless nights for the past few days, not sure why.
Damn! 10 more weeks to go before the next hols. How am I gonna survive I'm still wondering. So much things to do, not much time left. Dreading that it is coming to the mid of the year already. Shit! Turning 25 soon (too soon I feel). Crap, I'll be 1/4 of a century. Cheers to getting older! Blah!
Guess what! Happiness doesn't last. There is no such things as Happy Ever After. Maybe there is a reason they made Happily Never After.......
Damn! 10 more weeks to go before the next hols. How am I gonna survive I'm still wondering. So much things to do, not much time left. Dreading that it is coming to the mid of the year already. Shit! Turning 25 soon (too soon I feel). Crap, I'll be 1/4 of a century. Cheers to getting older! Blah!
Guess what! Happiness doesn't last. There is no such things as Happy Ever After. Maybe there is a reason they made Happily Never After.......
Thursday, March 15, 2007
My Perfect Guy
I'm in LOVE with this perfect guy, who woos me with words so sweet. This is not a poem, not a confession, just some words I want the whole world to know.
He captivates me with his Joker smile. His long curvy eye lashes I've always adore. The words out of his lips never fail to soothes my insecurities, yet they are not just sweet empty words but words that he means from the bottom of his heart. He comforts me, chasing away all my nightmares. Always there, never far away. Gives in to all my wimps yet firms up whenever he needs to. It took me awhile to open up, to tell him all my secrets insides. And when I did, it seems as if the world is so much better to live in.
Maybe its just a dream, maybe its not real. Maybe heaven do exists.........
He captivates me with his Joker smile. His long curvy eye lashes I've always adore. The words out of his lips never fail to soothes my insecurities, yet they are not just sweet empty words but words that he means from the bottom of his heart. He comforts me, chasing away all my nightmares. Always there, never far away. Gives in to all my wimps yet firms up whenever he needs to. It took me awhile to open up, to tell him all my secrets insides. And when I did, it seems as if the world is so much better to live in.
Maybe its just a dream, maybe its not real. Maybe heaven do exists.........
How to woo a Taurus????
This post is dedicated to one of my bestest friend Aydee.....
How do u woo a Taurus???? Hmmmmmm.....
Easy, a taurus is materialistic and egoistic bitch. She craves for the things she doesn't need and never learnt to appreciate the things she have. She adores people easily and gets her heartbroken too often. She can be too soft and cold hearted at the same time. She IS fickle, doesn't make up her mind easily. She listens to what others have to say rather than say what she has in mind. Her weakness.....chcolates...
How do u get a Taurus to fall in love with u??? Hmmmmm.....
U love her despite her ignorance, her weakness and her strength. U love her despite her tantrums and her stubborness. U give in to her wimps and desires. At the same time, woo her with sweet words, words means the world to her, sometimes more than action. Because she can't make up her mind, make the decision for her and when she disagrees, let her change that decision u have made. Love her family as much as she loves them, cos family means the whole world to her. Give her the independence she wants but at the same time, hold her close and give her ur full attention, cos a taurus strays easily. Apologise everytime she gets mad, even though u feel its not u who made her mad, and she'll apologise as soon as calms down. The most important is u must have all the patience in the world.Never let her walk away from u when u have a fight and NEVER walk away from her. Don't make promises u can't keep. Don't bring up her past unless she wants to bring it up. Don't tell her what ur ex did to u cos she won't give a damn. Last but not least, get her to fall in love with u when she is mature enough to handle love.
How do u woo a Taurus???? Hmmmmmm.....
Easy, a taurus is materialistic and egoistic bitch. She craves for the things she doesn't need and never learnt to appreciate the things she have. She adores people easily and gets her heartbroken too often. She can be too soft and cold hearted at the same time. She IS fickle, doesn't make up her mind easily. She listens to what others have to say rather than say what she has in mind. Her weakness.....chcolates...
How do u get a Taurus to fall in love with u??? Hmmmmm.....
U love her despite her ignorance, her weakness and her strength. U love her despite her tantrums and her stubborness. U give in to her wimps and desires. At the same time, woo her with sweet words, words means the world to her, sometimes more than action. Because she can't make up her mind, make the decision for her and when she disagrees, let her change that decision u have made. Love her family as much as she loves them, cos family means the whole world to her. Give her the independence she wants but at the same time, hold her close and give her ur full attention, cos a taurus strays easily. Apologise everytime she gets mad, even though u feel its not u who made her mad, and she'll apologise as soon as calms down. The most important is u must have all the patience in the world.Never let her walk away from u when u have a fight and NEVER walk away from her. Don't make promises u can't keep. Don't bring up her past unless she wants to bring it up. Don't tell her what ur ex did to u cos she won't give a damn. Last but not least, get her to fall in love with u when she is mature enough to handle love.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Its Thursday
Time check: 4:15pm in LGS staffroom all alone
Waiting for Soul to finish work so we can head out for dinner together. Had to finish up some last minute work for a camp tomorrow anyway.
Hmmm it is a bit convenient that Soul and me working at the same place. Convenient in a way that we know what each other is doing, understanding each others work problems and IF in case anything were to happen (CHOI!!!) we can easily be contacted since half of the colleagues has my number while the other halfs got his. On the other hand, I think sometimes we see each other too much that we tend to take advantage of each other.
Is that how marriage life is gonna be?? I mean, will we get bored of each other since we gonna see each other day in and out? How will we spice things up between us??
Ok don't get any ideas. I'm not getting married YET. Will people stop asking me when. Yes me and Soul has put a target on when we want to get married but there is so many things still I want to do. Seriously begining to think that maybe we are in a hurry planning for THE day. No denying I envy those friends of mine who are married or getting married. It looks so exciting and easy but hearing about all the preparation and $$$ made me think twice. Then married life itself means more responsibilities and more $$$$ needed. Halo! I am now still struggling with my responsibilities as a daughter, a grandaughter, a sister, a teacher and a friend whats more with responsibilities as a wife and daughter-in-law.
Ok, am beginning to panic right now. Breathe Di, breathe......
Waiting for Soul to finish work so we can head out for dinner together. Had to finish up some last minute work for a camp tomorrow anyway.
Hmmm it is a bit convenient that Soul and me working at the same place. Convenient in a way that we know what each other is doing, understanding each others work problems and IF in case anything were to happen (CHOI!!!) we can easily be contacted since half of the colleagues has my number while the other halfs got his. On the other hand, I think sometimes we see each other too much that we tend to take advantage of each other.
Is that how marriage life is gonna be?? I mean, will we get bored of each other since we gonna see each other day in and out? How will we spice things up between us??
Ok don't get any ideas. I'm not getting married YET. Will people stop asking me when. Yes me and Soul has put a target on when we want to get married but there is so many things still I want to do. Seriously begining to think that maybe we are in a hurry planning for THE day. No denying I envy those friends of mine who are married or getting married. It looks so exciting and easy but hearing about all the preparation and $$$ made me think twice. Then married life itself means more responsibilities and more $$$$ needed. Halo! I am now still struggling with my responsibilities as a daughter, a grandaughter, a sister, a teacher and a friend whats more with responsibilities as a wife and daughter-in-law.
Ok, am beginning to panic right now. Breathe Di, breathe......
Monday, March 05, 2007
Divorced
Received a news that another divorce from a couple I knew coming up.Hai.....here on one hand many of my friends rushing to get married and on another hand, many couples I know are heading for divorced.
Whats up with the world??? Once, divorcing was a shamful thing, yet now its a shamless act where some people divorcing just cos they can't stand their partner anymore. Don't understand it at all. Whats more, these people jump into another relationship once the divorce is final. Its good if the next relationship is really going somewhere and that new partner is really the ONE. But there are some shameless mother who does not bother about their children but going around shamelessly with a man.
Its scary but true. Seen it and experience it myself. These children are left on their own, where the mum don't even bother to ask if they have eaten. You can't possibly imagine what these children goes through. The attention they lack, the love they are denied.
Whats up with the world??? Once, divorcing was a shamful thing, yet now its a shamless act where some people divorcing just cos they can't stand their partner anymore. Don't understand it at all. Whats more, these people jump into another relationship once the divorce is final. Its good if the next relationship is really going somewhere and that new partner is really the ONE. But there are some shameless mother who does not bother about their children but going around shamelessly with a man.
Its scary but true. Seen it and experience it myself. These children are left on their own, where the mum don't even bother to ask if they have eaten. You can't possibly imagine what these children goes through. The attention they lack, the love they are denied.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
The Vertical Marathon
Wah lau, its coming to the end of 1st term already!!! One more week to go befor the holiday break. Yahoooooo!!!!! Its amazing how time flies when u are so busy.
Last sun was the National Vertical Marathon. 6 of our pupils was choosen to represent our school in the marathon. It was actually our first competition for the year. We trained the pupils for a month (me staying back almost everyday!!!!) I think its me and Soul who is more excited than the kids. Anyway, everything went smoothly. We came in top!!!! It was so exciting. Now can't wait for our Soccer competition coming up in April. Again me and Soul are planning very hard for their training. Trying to come up with varieties of training so they won't get bored.
On another record, I have not taken MC for this term!!!!! Amazing!!!!
My champions
Last sun was the National Vertical Marathon. 6 of our pupils was choosen to represent our school in the marathon. It was actually our first competition for the year. We trained the pupils for a month (me staying back almost everyday!!!!) I think its me and Soul who is more excited than the kids. Anyway, everything went smoothly. We came in top!!!! It was so exciting. Now can't wait for our Soccer competition coming up in April. Again me and Soul are planning very hard for their training. Trying to come up with varieties of training so they won't get bored.
On another record, I have not taken MC for this term!!!!! Amazing!!!!
My champions
Monday, February 19, 2007
Met The Family
Hai....feeling very stressed rite now. Actually finished feeling stressed but am recalling what happened in the day made me stressed again.
Recap on the Day:
Was invited to my pupil, Shannon, home today for the Chinese New Year. She lives in one of those terrace house somewhere in upper serangoon near to potong pasir. Ok that was not the point. So got nice food to eat and get to see Shannon in her different environment and her different behavior. Quite leased with her actually cos she was very welcoming and helpful in serving us as guests.
Then went to see my grandparents. Haven't been able to visit for the past weeks due to my hectic schedule in school. Feeling very bad cos now my grandparents are living on their own. Really need to spent more thime with them.
Ok the stress part is that today I met Soul's family. He hs been wanting me to meet his mum for quite some time already but I had always managed to avoid it. So today his sibs are celebrating his mum's bday so he asked me to tag along. Initially I kind of keep finding excuse not to go but SOMEONE told me I have to meet them sooner or later so better sooner! What kind of advice was that?? Anyway it has been kind of unfair also lah since he has met all my family members. ;P SO we met his mum first at Lakeside mrt. She is very quite. (Now I know where Soul's gotten his quiteness from.) Met his sis together with her husband at Swensen where we had dinner. The sis very nice, quite open but I still got along way to go to feel comfortable. The brother (the younger one) looks so like him.
Ok for u people who has no idea why am I so stressed up for is bcos I have never NEVER met up with any of my BF's family. I mean I never have to cos it never got far (I guess). I am not the type that charms people easily or gets comfortable with people easily so it was really awkward for me but I'm glad its over. Hopefully I get to sleep well tonite.....
Recap on the Day:
Was invited to my pupil, Shannon, home today for the Chinese New Year. She lives in one of those terrace house somewhere in upper serangoon near to potong pasir. Ok that was not the point. So got nice food to eat and get to see Shannon in her different environment and her different behavior. Quite leased with her actually cos she was very welcoming and helpful in serving us as guests.
Then went to see my grandparents. Haven't been able to visit for the past weeks due to my hectic schedule in school. Feeling very bad cos now my grandparents are living on their own. Really need to spent more thime with them.
Ok the stress part is that today I met Soul's family. He hs been wanting me to meet his mum for quite some time already but I had always managed to avoid it. So today his sibs are celebrating his mum's bday so he asked me to tag along. Initially I kind of keep finding excuse not to go but SOMEONE told me I have to meet them sooner or later so better sooner! What kind of advice was that?? Anyway it has been kind of unfair also lah since he has met all my family members. ;P SO we met his mum first at Lakeside mrt. She is very quite. (Now I know where Soul's gotten his quiteness from.) Met his sis together with her husband at Swensen where we had dinner. The sis very nice, quite open but I still got along way to go to feel comfortable. The brother (the younger one) looks so like him.
Ok for u people who has no idea why am I so stressed up for is bcos I have never NEVER met up with any of my BF's family. I mean I never have to cos it never got far (I guess). I am not the type that charms people easily or gets comfortable with people easily so it was really awkward for me but I'm glad its over. Hopefully I get to sleep well tonite.....
Friday, February 16, 2007
Walkin Home
The night is young, the sky is clear. The moon can't be seen but the stars are shining bright. Somehow no matter how tired I was, I felt the need to walk home and clear some thoughts in mind.
I love walking home. Don't know why. Used to walk home everytime after late nights out with friends. Even if it was 2 or 3 am in the morning. Somehow it just felt free. But now Soul doesn't allowed it due to my safety, so I only walk home if I'm coming home early.
Anyway, trying to sort out some things in life right now. Keep questioning, am I making the right decisions? Is this what I want out of life?
U guys know how serious I am. Am not the 'relek' type. And me being me, don't want to confide in people. No matter how close I am to friends, I am never the type to open up to my feelings and thoughts easily. Unless the scenario is over and done. And unless that person I trust with my life. (And I can count those people with one hand.)
I love walking home. Don't know why. Used to walk home everytime after late nights out with friends. Even if it was 2 or 3 am in the morning. Somehow it just felt free. But now Soul doesn't allowed it due to my safety, so I only walk home if I'm coming home early.
Anyway, trying to sort out some things in life right now. Keep questioning, am I making the right decisions? Is this what I want out of life?
U guys know how serious I am. Am not the 'relek' type. And me being me, don't want to confide in people. No matter how close I am to friends, I am never the type to open up to my feelings and thoughts easily. Unless the scenario is over and done. And unless that person I trust with my life. (And I can count those people with one hand.)
What My Birthdate means
| Your Birthdate: May 19 |
 You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested. You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them. Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others. You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself. Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence Your weakness: Suspicion of others Your power color: Eggplant Your power symbol: Spade Your power month: October |
Monday, February 12, 2007
5 months
12.09.06 - 12.02.07
Its been 5 months now.
The tears may have dried but the crack in the heart is still there.
Missing u lots, though trying hard to forget.
Pretending that u are still somewhere out there.
Its been 5 months now.
The tears may have dried but the crack in the heart is still there.
Missing u lots, though trying hard to forget.
Pretending that u are still somewhere out there.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
So Bzzzzzz
*BLANK*
Time check, its 4:15 in LGS staffroom, all alone.
My brain is dead man! Have been over busy with school activities for the past few weeks. Actually got lots of things to write but for now, the brain is just too tired to think of the words. Ok let me gather my thoughts.
Have been training our 6 pupils for a vertical marathon tournament fo the past fe weeks almost everyday. The marathon will be held on th 25th February. Me & Soul has been taking turns to train the kids in school and today we brought them out into the neighbouring flats to try out. The kids have to each climb up to 10 storey. At first thought was "WAH LAU!!! 10 storeys lei!!! Die man long time never climb stairs" When actually it took us less than 2 minutes. Can you believe it, it is less than 2 minutes to reach the 10th floor!!! And we were not even running yet. Hmmmm, could be that the steps of flights are too little. Maybe next time should get them to climb all the way to the 20th floor. Hahahaha
Time check, its 4:15 in LGS staffroom, all alone.
My brain is dead man! Have been over busy with school activities for the past few weeks. Actually got lots of things to write but for now, the brain is just too tired to think of the words. Ok let me gather my thoughts.
Have been training our 6 pupils for a vertical marathon tournament fo the past fe weeks almost everyday. The marathon will be held on th 25th February. Me & Soul has been taking turns to train the kids in school and today we brought them out into the neighbouring flats to try out. The kids have to each climb up to 10 storey. At first thought was "WAH LAU!!! 10 storeys lei!!! Die man long time never climb stairs" When actually it took us less than 2 minutes. Can you believe it, it is less than 2 minutes to reach the 10th floor!!! And we were not even running yet. Hmmmm, could be that the steps of flights are too little. Maybe next time should get them to climb all the way to the 20th floor. Hahahaha
On another note, i just finished reading this book title "My Sister's Keeper". It is damn sad and good. Gonna lend Soul the book to read so cannot write down what it is about here. Anyway just the sypnosis: The story is about this 13 year old girl who was made (n I mean literally made) to match her 2 years older sister's blood. Her older sister was found to had leukimia at the age of 4. Now we all by now should know what is leukimia. So since she was born, she has been given her blood to her sister. Now her sister has been found to have a kidney problem. Although she loves her sister, she doesn't want to give up her kidney for her sister. So what does she do? She actually sues her parents. It is during this trial when you get to find out the reasons behind her suing. And the ending is so ironic but sad. YOU SHOULD READ IT!!
Ok, Soul bought a new soccer boots. VERY NICE!!!! It looks like I will be playing soccer more now that Soul has got his boots. So we tried out his new boots (while I have my own old boots) yesterday in school with my class boys and guess what! My boots fell apart!!! Can you believe this. Its a SIGN!!! Dilah, time to get a new soccer boot. Heheehheee. Saw a pink (actually its white with very light red stripes that makes it looks pink from far) adidas soccer boots at the place where Soul bought his. Hmmmm maybe I should get it at the end of the month ;)
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Farewell My Friend
Taking my time to pen this words down.
I knew it ain't gonna be easy but I'm gonna do it anyway.
U have been a friend I could always rely on.
Never failed to be there.
Years have gone by, we've learnt to grow up.
Each of us have taken a different path, each of us leading a different life.
U are surrounded by wonderful friends, u don't need me anymore.
I'm leaving u now, steps by steps away.
I wish u all the best, all the happiness that u can get.
I hope those friends that u've loved and adore,
Will be there for u, as how u had for them.
I knew it ain't gonna be easy but I'm gonna do it anyway.
U have been a friend I could always rely on.
Never failed to be there.
Years have gone by, we've learnt to grow up.
Each of us have taken a different path, each of us leading a different life.
U are surrounded by wonderful friends, u don't need me anymore.
I'm leaving u now, steps by steps away.
I wish u all the best, all the happiness that u can get.
I hope those friends that u've loved and adore,
Will be there for u, as how u had for them.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Feeling Lousy
Been feeling very lousy for the past few days. I am seriously not sure whats wrong with me. Have been losing my temper easily lately, getting impatient over small things. Need to destressed myself soon. Not to worry cos payday is in 3 days time. YAHOOOOOOOO!!!!! Can go shopping!!!!! Yeah!!!!!
Missing my friends alot!!!! Especially Naz and Alulu. We used to lepakz alot together. Must meet up with them soon. Also because of my bz schedule, missed seeing my god daughter who just celebrated her 3rd year birthday. Must buy her a belated birhday present. Hmmmmm......
Also must meet up with Rach soon. Yo babe, better meet up soon before I finish up my pay. hahahaha......
Missing my friends alot!!!! Especially Naz and Alulu. We used to lepakz alot together. Must meet up with them soon. Also because of my bz schedule, missed seeing my god daughter who just celebrated her 3rd year birthday. Must buy her a belated birhday present. Hmmmmm......
Also must meet up with Rach soon. Yo babe, better meet up soon before I finish up my pay. hahahaha......
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Weird
Been haunted by weird dreams for the past few days. Its making me cranky during the days. Wats up with that???!!!
The first week was hectic. Hadn't got the chance to think bout Uncle Rosli until the weekends. Soul said its a good sign cos then it means I'm focusing on my work and letting him go slowly. But when given a chance to dwell, it hits hard and straight.
Making things worse, just receive a news that someone I knew, was told after a check up she has cancer. Not sure how to react to the news at first. Even while she was telling me about the check up and everything else, my mind went berserk. How could a nice person like her get it??!! How come its someone I know??!!! Not sure what else to expect and it is only the begining of the year.
And wats more, somehow this song keeps banging in my head:
Life’s a show and we all play a part
And when the music starts,We open up our hearts
It’s all right if some things come out wrong.
We’ll sing a happy song
And you can sing along.
Where’s there’s life,
There’s hope.
Everyday’s A gift.
Wishes can Come true.
Whistle while You work.
So hard All day.
To be like other girls
To fit in in this glittering world.
Don’t give me songs.
Don’t give me songs.
Give me something to sing about.
I need something to sing about.
Life’s a song
You don’t get to rehearse.
And every single verse
Can make it that much worse.
Still my friends
Don’t know why I ignore
The million things or moreI should be dancing for.
All the joyLife sends.
FamilyAnd friends.
All the twists
And bends
Knowing that
It ends.
Well thatDepends…
The first week was hectic. Hadn't got the chance to think bout Uncle Rosli until the weekends. Soul said its a good sign cos then it means I'm focusing on my work and letting him go slowly. But when given a chance to dwell, it hits hard and straight.
Making things worse, just receive a news that someone I knew, was told after a check up she has cancer. Not sure how to react to the news at first. Even while she was telling me about the check up and everything else, my mind went berserk. How could a nice person like her get it??!! How come its someone I know??!!! Not sure what else to expect and it is only the begining of the year.
And wats more, somehow this song keeps banging in my head:
Life’s a show and we all play a part
And when the music starts,We open up our hearts
It’s all right if some things come out wrong.
We’ll sing a happy song
And you can sing along.
Where’s there’s life,
There’s hope.
Everyday’s A gift.
Wishes can Come true.
Whistle while You work.
So hard All day.
To be like other girls
To fit in in this glittering world.
Don’t give me songs.
Don’t give me songs.
Give me something to sing about.
I need something to sing about.
Life’s a song
You don’t get to rehearse.
And every single verse
Can make it that much worse.
Still my friends
Don’t know why I ignore
The million things or moreI should be dancing for.
All the joyLife sends.
FamilyAnd friends.
All the twists
And bends
Knowing that
It ends.
Well thatDepends…
Friday, January 05, 2007
New Year, new work
Am trying to do my lesson plan but it seems my brain won't work, keeps floating to other things.
Its only 3 days of school and already could feel the preasure pressing me down. Not sure what I did last year but I seemed to be piled up with responsibilities this year. Not sure also if its a good sign or not. So worried I won't be able to handle it, so afraid to let people down when they have so much comfidence in me.
On another happy note, Soul got a permanent place in school. Get to see him everyday ;) . Hahahaha.......Already planning in my mind what to do during the June holidays.
Its only 3 days of school and already could feel the preasure pressing me down. Not sure what I did last year but I seemed to be piled up with responsibilities this year. Not sure also if its a good sign or not. So worried I won't be able to handle it, so afraid to let people down when they have so much comfidence in me.
On another happy note, Soul got a permanent place in school. Get to see him everyday ;) . Hahahaha.......Already planning in my mind what to do during the June holidays.