The result is just a piece of paper

The past few days has been quite hectic. Too many things happening at one time. Like they say; Life ain't a bed of roses.

PSLE results were finally out and over. Many knew my baby bro sat for the exam this year and was one of those kids waiting for the results. It seems that many acquaintances I knew have children who were also waiting for the results eagerly. Big Congratulations to parents whoese child had done well!!

It was so long time ago when I was in the same position. But I was lucky. Being the eldest child in the family, I wasn't really pressurized to score. I was only pressurized to pass the exam and not to repeat PSLE. ;) I was actually quite worried also cos I am never the clever kid who can get A just like that. I belong to the other group of kids where I need to put in 200% of efforts just to do well. But I never regret in being that group, cos I believed that it made me a better person and not take things for granted and work hard for what I want.

And it seems my baby bro and my little babe (u know who u are) belongs to the same group as me (yeah....) Its hard for them. These kiddos are so pressurized to do well as they have older siblings who had done well. They are expected to do just as well or worse better. In the end these parents forget that no thumbs have the same set of prints. I shall not indulge in their results as it does not matter. As the result, is just a piece of paper.

I do take the blame too. Maybe I was not strict enough with them. Maybe I did not taught them right. Maybe I did not motivate them enough. There's too many maybes in our life and yet it still get us going. I do feel bad that they did not manage to get the results that ther people wants them to get. I do feel that I am somehow responsible for their results. As a tutor and a big sister, I am responsible for them. So let this be a lesson for them and me.

As they are going to step into a new chapter of their life, into teengers, there is more challenge to come. More mistakes they are going to make and I hope more lessons to be learnt. Its not always easy to step out of your comfort zone and go into a new environment. So my advise to my 2 kiddies, take the step with courage and and an open heart. Pick a school you want to go and put in efforts to work hard. It's ok to fail (as I too had failed a couple of times) but make sure you push yourself to pass and score. Life will never get easier but it gets better if you want it too. The decision of how you want your life to be is up to you. Make friends but don't be disheartened if you lose some along the way. Find your strengths and curb your weaknesses. All in all, remember the people who loves you and always have faith in Allah. Know that he will look out for you if you want him too. In the end the person you become is the result, and that is NOT a piece of paper.

Life still goes on

Finally!!! The big day had come and gone. Today was the MINDS combine graduation day. Lee Kong Chian Gardens School staff was the committee in charge in putting up the big day together. It took us months of preparation with long hours of after work to put together a 6hr party for pupils graduating this year. But I guess it pays off, especially seing their happy faces.

A total of 99 pupils from all 5 schools turned 18 this year and graduate today. For some it might not be something that they are aware of but to most of them, they somehow knew that things are going to be different for them from now onwards. Being pushed into a working adult for this pupils with intellectual disability might not be something most of them looks forward to. I have past pupils who came up to me after working for a year, still telling me they wished they could go back to the times when they were still in school. How different are they really from us? I still have friends who stills wish they could turn back time to those glorious days of schools ;)

Still life has to go on. No point wishing for something that can not be undone. Today as we watched each of our graduates wentup on stage taking their cert, can't help but feel that somehow we had played a part in their life. Like what one colleague told me, " When you see them graduate, its a very good feeling. Cos you knew that somehow no matter how small it is, you had played a part in their life. Even if it is just giving them a push to go up the stage to receive the cert."

Next week is the last week of school. Next year there will be a new batch of students to groomed. A new batch of graduates we are going to help, to prepare for them to step into a young working adult life. That will be next. But for now, its just time for us to take a breather......

Hari Raya

This year raya just doesn't seem right. Not feeling up for the celebration. Actually i just realize that I have never really enjoyed celebrating Hari Raya. I mean first day is exciting, getting ready in new clothes, meeting your family blah blah blah.......

But do these people actually knew the meaning of celebrating Hari Raya? Do they actually know the purpose of this celebration? Why do these people cry and ask for forgiveness but the next day, all the shits just starts again? I never did understand.

I don't understand why these people visit other people's house (no offense people) just for "collection" when these people might be people related to their friends but strangers to them? Why do people bother to visit friends with whom they have not been keeing contact for years?

No intention to be offensive but I just need to ask and I hope people understand. Maybe its just me. I have never really been the type to keep in contact with people. Maybe because I have been stabbed on the back too many times. I have learnt too many times that friends just come and go. And they are always easy to make new ones. Although there are times I wish I had made the effort to keep in contact with some people.

But my family I have always believed, will be there for me through out, and it has been proven too many times..........