Is it Time??

It feels weird to be at home doing nothing. I miss work definately....but I guess it is more peaceful having not to worry bout work. ;P

Been looking through some pictures of friends with their babies. It makes me wonder how much life changes due to another human being. Friends who used to be so outgoing has turned into this motherly creatures and centers their world onto this another human being. Isn't it strange, how this one small creature can just turn your whole world around!

It had never crossed my mind that i would come to this stage either. I mean, all through growing up, all I can think/dream about was earning money to spend on the things that I never get to when I was at that stage. Or doing things that I never get to. But now.......
Of cos I still dream about going to other places, however, it now centers to whether i can bring the little one, or if I leave her, will I be able to enjoy myself.

Soul and me cannot wait for her to come out. For me it is because it tends to get more painful and uncomfortable having her inside. At other times, I just get worried about whats going on inside cos I can't see and do anything much to know whether everythings ok. For Soul, I guess, having a playmate is just a swell idea. LOL!! He is so going to be a great dad!


At times, I feel envy of friends who had started thier family earlier. I mean Babies are always cute and adorable. And I guess once they grow up, they can get easier if you know how to manage them. And I've heard this saying, "Everyones born to be a parent. Its whether u embrace it or not is another entire different thing."

Bro's 24th Bday

Ok this post is a little bit late cos I was busy going out and about.

Bro celebrated his 24th bday with a bbq at Lin's place. So its not by the beach but by the roadside, we still manage to have fun and eat alot of food!!! Uncle Fendi of cos was the bbq expert. We had lots of yummy chickens, prawns, hotdogs, otak-otak and satays. Aunt Rash and Uncle Salleh brought yummy durians!!! Not sure why usually I don't eat alot of durians but somehow that day the durians were super duper yummys!!!

We manage to sabo the bday boy who does NOT (how can anybody does not eat!) eat durian!!! Infront of all his friends some more! I think bor really had a good time cos its not often he had a bday party.......

The yummy BBQ

Busy BBQuing

Trying very hard to open the durian

SABO!!!

My Partying Days

This March holidays has been super super busy. I am suppose to be starting my Maternity leave and just rest @ home and started doing my work while I am away from school. BUT.....its the holidays!!!!

The 'Makciks' planned a "Surprise" Baby shower for me. At least they thought I was surprised (the trick to surprising people is not to EVER talk about it infront of them!) Hahahaha. They brought me out to lunch first in town. We ate @ Swensen's ION which was surprisingly empty! We had different dishes so that we could all try out. Kak Su and Kak Lin also had the Ice cream / Dessert buffet which Soul & Me had always wanted to try but it was always crowded when we went! However didn't have the stomach to eat it that day ;(

And then they brought me to Gallery Hotel where they have decorated the room with my baby's gifts. Aawwwww...I was actually very touched reading the notes they pasted to make a scrapbook. And I guess I missed my 2 gerls who are not around on that day.......

Lunch @ ION Swensens

The yummy cheesecake cupcake

The very touching notes scrapbook

My gifts

Dressing me up silly!

The 'Makciks'

Baby's things

Went baby shopping today with Mum, sis and bro. Chaos!! But very fun! So many nice things...wish I have the money and place to spend on her. However, I know it is unnecessary.

Bought the important things like clothings and finally decided on a playpen/bed. Ok lah hopefully it can last untill baby gerl bigger! The rest of the things can wait for people to give. Muahahahaha!

Baby gerls playpen. Unfortunately does not comes in pink!

Karokeing/Movie Marathon

Had our monthly karaokeing/movie marathon at Aunt Rash's place today. She cooked yummy asam pedas ikan pari with sotong masak hitam (both my favourites!!). Had a big serving and then baby in tummy fell asleep while we watch "Prince of Persia" and "You Again".

"Prince of Persia" was not bad. Surprisingly I was kept in my seat. Jake Gyllenhal looks good with the long hair after a while too.

Unfortunately, had to leave early cos Soul is performing his Capoeira at our CCK sunshine place.

Maybe its time for a change

Work is begining to sux big time. I mean I still love the kids and what I am doing for them but at times, I begin to wonder if its really for these kids future. The changes made does not make sense at time and I begin to wonder if its just me.

It is damn irritating to see that the people rewarded are the same group of people who does not seem to ever make much effort for the children. I mean, they complained when they have extra work, when they have to come on sats and hols, they've never voluntered their time more than when needed and they are not as committed as some other teachers I've seen. Does doing paperwork really matters? Handing them on time? Sheesh no wonder they have no time to volunteer and are always rushing home. Because they have to polish their paperworks so it will look good. I guess it does not matter if the paperworks just does not benefit the children.

Its no wonder all the good, hardworking teachers left/are leaving. Maybe its time for me too.....

34 weeks and counting down

Ok I've carried her for 34 weeks. Can you imagine it?? I can't! I still can't believe at times how miraculously (is that how you spell??) it works! She is moving alot more now. Its not only kicking,but literally MOVING. At times, my tummy looks like a big wave moving from one side to another. At other times, I can literally feel her kicking my kidney, stomach, liver........The pain at times is so unbearable!!

Really can'twait for her to comes out. Everyone predicts that she will comes out earlier than planned. Although I am concerned bout the pain I have to go through, I hope she will not make us wait long either. But maybe not too early!

Everyone seems so excited for us that it is so scary. It seems as if so much is expected out of this baby gerl. What if she does not turns out the way everyone expects her. Then how??

For me, I am not sure what to expect. I just hope everythings turns out alright.