Saying goodbye to 2013 is very hard! It is not only because that means the holidays are truly coming to the end, but saying goodbye to another year, to me also saying goodbye to the so many things that had happened in the year.
2013 started out exciting with the arrival of our 2nd baby Girl, Arissa Nailah. Even though I did not planned to have this soon, I am so glad and thankful that she arrived safely into our life. Naira did not have a hard time adjusting to little sis arrival and that to me just how much mature my little girl is. And in 2013, Naira is a big sister at 2 years old.
However, our joy did not last long. 2013 is the year that I lost someone very close and dear to me. My Grandmum, the Matriarch of our family, passed away a day after my 31st Birthday. Her passing caused 2 things to happen to my family. It had brought me closer to my cousins. It also opened up my eyes to see the imperfections / tainted glass in our family. I shall not go into more details cause I would rather not talk about it. I have accepted her passing and she is forever in my memories and in my heart. It was also at this same time, my god-father found a cancer in him. He has been going for chemo and staying strong fighting it till now. My once fit go to god-father has turned into this skinny but still fit (thank god!) man. I am ever still grateful that he is around.
I came back from my maternity leave to a heavy load of work in school. However, I enjoyed the works that I'm doing and the people I am doing it with. Of course, nothing is perfect, there are some people who are pain in the ***. However, I am still glad that I got the opportunity to show my strength, work on my weaknesses and learn something new, everyday.
I enjoyed my holidays very much because I get to spend it with Soul and our 2 girls. We went to visit to lots of places and even manage to squeeze in a short trip to Batam with my besties! (read al about my holiday with my 2 girls in aworkingdevilmum.wordpress.com)
So now saying goodbye to 2013, is also saying goodbye to me being 31. 2014 will be another year older.
Professionally, there will be a lot of new things waiting for me. I am embarking on a new role which I am definitely looking forward to!
Family, I will be welcoming a new niece earlier part of 2014. My girls will be 3 and 1 years old individually. We are planning for a family holiday at the end of the year. We will also be celebrating our 5th wedding anniversary and hopefully getting the key to our new home soon.
Personally, I still have a lot of growing up to do. As a mummy, a wife, daughter, a teacher, a friend......I am not sure what 2014 will bring but I can only pray for more happiness and joys in my life.
So Goodbye 2013 and Hello 2014! Bring it on!
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Friday, December 20, 2013
Where did my holiday go to?
OMG! We are left with only 2 more weeks of december before the holiday comes to an end!!! Nightmare! I am so not ready for 2014!!!!
The holiday has been so much fun! I managed to do so many things with my babies. I can't believe time really fly just like that! Am so looking forward to our very short getaway soon! It does not matter that it is going to be just one night, at least it is still something! Hopefully my CNY holiday planned will be becoming.
Now that I have my own babies, I realised that I suck at emergency cases. For example, when my baby choked on her milk and start vomitting it all out, I would just panic and shriek for Soul or just remain blur and just hold on to her getting vomit all over me! ;P You would think after 2 years of being a mum I would handle things better. I guess I still need more time and more years to learn.
The holiday has been so much fun! I managed to do so many things with my babies. I can't believe time really fly just like that! Am so looking forward to our very short getaway soon! It does not matter that it is going to be just one night, at least it is still something! Hopefully my CNY holiday planned will be becoming.
Now that I have my own babies, I realised that I suck at emergency cases. For example, when my baby choked on her milk and start vomitting it all out, I would just panic and shriek for Soul or just remain blur and just hold on to her getting vomit all over me! ;P You would think after 2 years of being a mum I would handle things better. I guess I still need more time and more years to learn.
Monday, November 04, 2013
Updates
Its been awhile since I've last blogged. Too many things have happened and as usual, just not enough time.......
First up, work as usual has been crazy! We are coming to the last 2 weeks of school before we get our long holiday. Hooray!!! Yet as usual, I enjoyed all the business and progress that I have made. Can't wait to find out what is in store for me next year! For now, 3 more events that I am involved with.......
My baby gerls sure keeps me on my toes! My big baby is all full of herself nowadays. She lves to imitates the cartoons she watched. Currently, her favourite is 'The Croods'. For those who are not sure what the cartoon is all about: Its all about this cave girl who has issues listening and following her dad's rules, which is all bout keeping the family safe. She met a new guy and the whole family went for this life journey to a new place. Ok I suck at summarising! Basically, the moral is all about father and daughter thingy. My babies love the cartoons. My big baby just love imitating the climbing and the singing. Yes, she is singing! She even sings the song when we were walking home from the supermarket!
My little baby is a bit more clingy. She is still breastfed, so I am not sure if that is one of the reasons she still clings to me a lot. When I am home, she refuse to follow anyone else. Even my mum! If we were at anybody else's place it is worst! She refuses to be put down. Oh well. Just part of being a mum I guess.
It gets harder to find time just for myself or just to spend with Soul. We are in our 4 years of marriage. I will not say that it gets easier, I guess it is more routine for us. We do try to find time just for us to spend together. But we also love the fact that the gerls are there to spend with us too.
Hopefully with the holidays coming up. We will get more time for us.
First up, work as usual has been crazy! We are coming to the last 2 weeks of school before we get our long holiday. Hooray!!! Yet as usual, I enjoyed all the business and progress that I have made. Can't wait to find out what is in store for me next year! For now, 3 more events that I am involved with.......
My baby gerls sure keeps me on my toes! My big baby is all full of herself nowadays. She lves to imitates the cartoons she watched. Currently, her favourite is 'The Croods'. For those who are not sure what the cartoon is all about: Its all about this cave girl who has issues listening and following her dad's rules, which is all bout keeping the family safe. She met a new guy and the whole family went for this life journey to a new place. Ok I suck at summarising! Basically, the moral is all about father and daughter thingy. My babies love the cartoons. My big baby just love imitating the climbing and the singing. Yes, she is singing! She even sings the song when we were walking home from the supermarket!
My little baby is a bit more clingy. She is still breastfed, so I am not sure if that is one of the reasons she still clings to me a lot. When I am home, she refuse to follow anyone else. Even my mum! If we were at anybody else's place it is worst! She refuses to be put down. Oh well. Just part of being a mum I guess.
It gets harder to find time just for myself or just to spend with Soul. We are in our 4 years of marriage. I will not say that it gets easier, I guess it is more routine for us. We do try to find time just for us to spend together. But we also love the fact that the gerls are there to spend with us too.
Hopefully with the holidays coming up. We will get more time for us.
Monday, August 26, 2013
Ex-Lover
I had a weird dream. I dreamt of an ex-lover. Someone I have not seen, talk or heard from for the last 12 years. He was just a lover because, he did not stay long enough to be a boyfriend, and the feeling we had was not deep enough to be turned into a relationship. And I had not given him a thought for a very long time!
In this weird dream I had, we met, we dated, we took a train to somewhere. There was no talking, no holding hands, no kissing........
The dream was peaceful. There was no fear, no shyness, no hatred. I can't seemed to describe the feeling. It was so serene.
In the dream he seemed thinner than how I remembered him to be. He had his hair tie up in as manly fashionable way as it can be. He smiled the same way he used to, the same smiled I had fell in love with then.
Then, a sharp cry woke me from the dream. Its time to get back to my reality. And just like that, it was just a dream.......
Can somebody tell me what the heck it was all about!
In this weird dream I had, we met, we dated, we took a train to somewhere. There was no talking, no holding hands, no kissing........
The dream was peaceful. There was no fear, no shyness, no hatred. I can't seemed to describe the feeling. It was so serene.
In the dream he seemed thinner than how I remembered him to be. He had his hair tie up in as manly fashionable way as it can be. He smiled the same way he used to, the same smiled I had fell in love with then.
Then, a sharp cry woke me from the dream. Its time to get back to my reality. And just like that, it was just a dream.......
Can somebody tell me what the heck it was all about!
Thursday, June 06, 2013
Life goes on....
As I sat down, trying to put words down, while watching Beauty & The Geek 3, my little girl is playing with my slippers that she had found under the wardrobe. She has made all the sadness and despair in my life so easy to get over with. She brings a kind of sunshine that can never be dimmed and now with the addition with the little one, nothing in life seems impossible!
Monday, April 22, 2013
Little Gerl has learnt to talk! Hooray???!
Everyday there is always something new to be amaze about. For 2 years and 12 days, Little Gerl has brought so much amazement (is there such word?) to my life. I am just so amazed with her every little antics! ( The word amaze is going to be used alot now!)
Our Little Gerl has learnt to 'talk'. Not just to communicate but to identify things, to have a conversation only she understands, to relate to things to make us understand and to just copy whatever someone says. Her recent obsessions to the cartoon 'Shrek' was initially, we thought, was something funny. Our fault was that we indulged her by buying all 4 chapters of Shrek. She began to tickle us when she began to repeat some of the words and actions. It started with silly words/exclamation like 'WHAT!' . She could tell or know what tonexpect next in the story line. But what got me worried was when she began to take 2 toys and 'make' them kiss each other. Yet we still found it humourous! However we have changed to other different cartoons.....
Once we found out that she was able to communicate, Hubby and I began to instill mannerism in her. We both always feel that manners should always start from young. So we started with 'PLEASE'. Initially, whenenver we asked her to say please she would say, ' ticketicketik' and it tickles everyone who hears. And since she got a reaction, she would not say please properly. Till now , whenever someone say, ' say please' she would say 'ticketicketik'. However when she takes the initiative to want something, she was able to say ' please!' . Like one morning when she wanted to play on my IPAD, she brought it to me, said 'gd morning' shove the IPAD to my face and said 'please!' . I had a shock of my life! But am really glad that she is picking up words correctly. She has also learnt to say 'Thank you' when she gets/receives something. Although it may sound 'tiang que'!
So here are some of the words that she has learnt and we have understand:
Yes - nak nak nak
No - no
Bubbles - bable
Shoes - shoo
Baby - baby
Adik (baby sis) - adek
Shrek - shwag
Who is that - whose that
What is that - whose that
She has also learnt to name the different parts of her face like eyes, ears nose, mouth and hair. She can also recognize family members very well! Also able to name them and point to them in pictures or real life. Now the next word we are trying to get her to learn is ' I love you!' . But it seems abit hard for her to catch up. I keep singing her the 'Barney song' ! Oh well, hopefully she will be able to say it before my bday.......
Our Little Gerl has learnt to 'talk'. Not just to communicate but to identify things, to have a conversation only she understands, to relate to things to make us understand and to just copy whatever someone says. Her recent obsessions to the cartoon 'Shrek' was initially, we thought, was something funny. Our fault was that we indulged her by buying all 4 chapters of Shrek. She began to tickle us when she began to repeat some of the words and actions. It started with silly words/exclamation like 'WHAT!' . She could tell or know what tonexpect next in the story line. But what got me worried was when she began to take 2 toys and 'make' them kiss each other. Yet we still found it humourous! However we have changed to other different cartoons.....
Once we found out that she was able to communicate, Hubby and I began to instill mannerism in her. We both always feel that manners should always start from young. So we started with 'PLEASE'. Initially, whenenver we asked her to say please she would say, ' ticketicketik' and it tickles everyone who hears. And since she got a reaction, she would not say please properly. Till now , whenever someone say, ' say please' she would say 'ticketicketik'. However when she takes the initiative to want something, she was able to say ' please!' . Like one morning when she wanted to play on my IPAD, she brought it to me, said 'gd morning' shove the IPAD to my face and said 'please!' . I had a shock of my life! But am really glad that she is picking up words correctly. She has also learnt to say 'Thank you' when she gets/receives something. Although it may sound 'tiang que'!
So here are some of the words that she has learnt and we have understand:
Yes - nak nak nak
No - no
Bubbles - bable
Shoes - shoo
Baby - baby
Adik (baby sis) - adek
Shrek - shwag
Who is that - whose that
What is that - whose that
She has also learnt to name the different parts of her face like eyes, ears nose, mouth and hair. She can also recognize family members very well! Also able to name them and point to them in pictures or real life. Now the next word we are trying to get her to learn is ' I love you!' . But it seems abit hard for her to catch up. I keep singing her the 'Barney song' ! Oh well, hopefully she will be able to say it before my bday.......
Thursday, April 11, 2013
A Letter to my Daughter
Dearest Naira,
Two years ago you were this small creature that somehow came out of me. I could not believe you have made me a mum! But you have brought so much joy to so many people!
It is amazing how a picture of you when posted on facebook could have garnered so much likes and comments from so many friends of mummy and daddy.
You were such an easy baby. You smile alot, feed alot and you were a joy to be around with. Although i miss the times when I could just sit at coffee bean and waste the day away, I am still glad that you have kept my days and nights occupied. You are such a learner. You picked up things so fast and you are so full of energy! We are always so amazed with your antics and the things you do to entertain. Of course there are days when you make mummy and daddy mad, but we NEVER love you less!
You are the first and the eldest child in the family (just like me!). I hope you will not find it a burden to be the eldest and the most responsible one. You WILL always have to give in to your little sister, whom we know you love lots. And we WILL always make you give in to your little sister. But I hope you will understand that by doing that, you are building a character full of responsibilities, kindness, sharing, caring and love. And we will always love you for that. We hope you will also know and realise that we both love you both equally just as much, never more than the other and never less.
As you grow up, I hope you will realise that you are love by many and appreciate the love that you get. Life will not get easy but mummy and daddy will always be there for you. For every strength you find, there will also be a weakness. For every time your heart gets broken, you will find a love much stronger and more beautiful later on. Never settle for less but never be greedy for more. Always be considerate of others and don't do what you don't want others to do to you. Love yourself more before you love another and always remember I LOVE YOU no matter what.
Two years ago you were this small creature that somehow came out of me. I could not believe you have made me a mum! But you have brought so much joy to so many people!
It is amazing how a picture of you when posted on facebook could have garnered so much likes and comments from so many friends of mummy and daddy.
You were such an easy baby. You smile alot, feed alot and you were a joy to be around with. Although i miss the times when I could just sit at coffee bean and waste the day away, I am still glad that you have kept my days and nights occupied. You are such a learner. You picked up things so fast and you are so full of energy! We are always so amazed with your antics and the things you do to entertain. Of course there are days when you make mummy and daddy mad, but we NEVER love you less!
You are the first and the eldest child in the family (just like me!). I hope you will not find it a burden to be the eldest and the most responsible one. You WILL always have to give in to your little sister, whom we know you love lots. And we WILL always make you give in to your little sister. But I hope you will understand that by doing that, you are building a character full of responsibilities, kindness, sharing, caring and love. And we will always love you for that. We hope you will also know and realise that we both love you both equally just as much, never more than the other and never less.
As you grow up, I hope you will realise that you are love by many and appreciate the love that you get. Life will not get easy but mummy and daddy will always be there for you. For every strength you find, there will also be a weakness. For every time your heart gets broken, you will find a love much stronger and more beautiful later on. Never settle for less but never be greedy for more. Always be considerate of others and don't do what you don't want others to do to you. Love yourself more before you love another and always remember I LOVE YOU no matter what.
Wednesday, April 03, 2013
Depressing
I don't understand how last time mothers can have so many kids! Here I am with only 2 beautiful girls and I am almost going mad!
It has not been an easy week. Granny has been hospitalised and was in a bad way. Alhamdulilah, she is recovering well. Mum has been travelling to and fro almost everyday to the hospital. I am left alone at home to look after the kids since it is not advisable to bring them to the hospital. Baby gerl then started to fall sick. But also recovering well. Now mum is sick and I am again on my own with my 2 girls.
I love my girls very much but Little gerl is driving me nuts! She is forever climbing onto the dining table, windows, side table.......and although I do encourage free playing, climbing onto the tables and pouring water, or playing with the telephone is just not the things to do! At the same time, baby gerl is now becoming more alert and not does not fall asleep easily. She wants to latch on more or have someone entertain her, which has not been easy cos her sister keeps making me run after her!
I am begining to feel so stressed up staying at home! But at the same time, I don't have the heart to go out and leave them at home! HELP!!!
It has not been an easy week. Granny has been hospitalised and was in a bad way. Alhamdulilah, she is recovering well. Mum has been travelling to and fro almost everyday to the hospital. I am left alone at home to look after the kids since it is not advisable to bring them to the hospital. Baby gerl then started to fall sick. But also recovering well. Now mum is sick and I am again on my own with my 2 girls.
I love my girls very much but Little gerl is driving me nuts! She is forever climbing onto the dining table, windows, side table.......and although I do encourage free playing, climbing onto the tables and pouring water, or playing with the telephone is just not the things to do! At the same time, baby gerl is now becoming more alert and not does not fall asleep easily. She wants to latch on more or have someone entertain her, which has not been easy cos her sister keeps making me run after her!
I am begining to feel so stressed up staying at home! But at the same time, I don't have the heart to go out and leave them at home! HELP!!!
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Sunshines in my life
A month has passed since Baby Girl was born. Life has been full of ups and downs. It has not been easy yet it has not been that difficult compared to some others I know. The only challenge I am facing right now is more about managing my time.
With 2 beautiful girls, I need to learn to give my time fairly to spend with both of them. Our Little Gerl will turn 2 soon. At this age, she has shown so much cleverness and maturity (sometimes). She is now able to tell what she wants, needs and nots. Her love for baby sis is amazing! She is able to call her name 'Arissa', helps with throwing the diapers and even when baby sis cries in the middle of the night, she would wake up and give baby sis a kiss, as if assuring her that everything will be alright, before returning to her sleep. I could not have been more grateful for having her........
I cannot wait to return to work and get my routine back. However, there is that slight hesitation, I can't help wonder how my mum going to handle 2 toddlers with a 4 month old baby once I start working. Even though I know she is capable of doing it, I am just worried that they will exhaust her. And I wonder if baby girl could take bottle milk.
I keep saying this, but I have never imagined myself being a mum, whats more a mother of 2. Although the feeling is amazing, there are times when I honestly wish I had more time to spend with myself or with Soul before having to handle 2 of them. I can't help but envy my friends at times who still are enjoying their lives travelling. Mum keeps telling us to go ahead and travel while the kids still young and we can leave them with her. But the motherly part of me are still anxious when it comes to leaving them behind. Haish.....its hard to be a mum!
So now that we are still only a month, I am learning to enjoy every minute spending with my 2 girls. Whether it is during our night time feeding or toilet training, I am grateful for the 2 sunshines in my life and I could not ask for more.........
With 2 beautiful girls, I need to learn to give my time fairly to spend with both of them. Our Little Gerl will turn 2 soon. At this age, she has shown so much cleverness and maturity (sometimes). She is now able to tell what she wants, needs and nots. Her love for baby sis is amazing! She is able to call her name 'Arissa', helps with throwing the diapers and even when baby sis cries in the middle of the night, she would wake up and give baby sis a kiss, as if assuring her that everything will be alright, before returning to her sleep. I could not have been more grateful for having her........
I cannot wait to return to work and get my routine back. However, there is that slight hesitation, I can't help wonder how my mum going to handle 2 toddlers with a 4 month old baby once I start working. Even though I know she is capable of doing it, I am just worried that they will exhaust her. And I wonder if baby girl could take bottle milk.
I keep saying this, but I have never imagined myself being a mum, whats more a mother of 2. Although the feeling is amazing, there are times when I honestly wish I had more time to spend with myself or with Soul before having to handle 2 of them. I can't help but envy my friends at times who still are enjoying their lives travelling. Mum keeps telling us to go ahead and travel while the kids still young and we can leave them with her. But the motherly part of me are still anxious when it comes to leaving them behind. Haish.....its hard to be a mum!
So now that we are still only a month, I am learning to enjoy every minute spending with my 2 girls. Whether it is during our night time feeding or toilet training, I am grateful for the 2 sunshines in my life and I could not ask for more.........
Friday, March 01, 2013
2nd week and still counting
2nd week was the most stressing week I ever had with my Baby Gerls. Besides adjusting to having 2 princess and getting over the pain, small baby girl was found to have high jaundice in her in her first week. Due to this, she was warded in the hospital for 2 nights. And for that 2 nights, Soul and I experienced every parents nightmares: To be separated from their child before they are ready to.
Haish it was really depressing! And then even after we brought her back, for the whole week we kept a very close eye on her. She was sunned, bathe with some flowers thingy and fed with formula milk which was a struggle (she kept spitting it back to our face!). However when we brought her back to her Paediatrician, we were assured that its normal for babies who has jaundiced and breastfed to recover later. Thankfully now she is recovering nicely.
On another side, our Big Gerl seems to be adjusting well to little sis. She seems to enjoy having her little sis around and keeps kissing her (thats the cute part!). However it tends to get irritating on my part cos she was having difficulties sleeping at night. She just wants to kiss her little sis and rub her hair on little sis's face. Besides that, her energy level seems to be extremely high! She would be wandering, climbing and messing up the house at every chance she can get! I am sooooo exhausted chasing after her and I don't have to do anything else ok!
At the same time, I hate my confinement period! Ok I don't mind having to control the food and drinks I have to take. I also don't mind not having to go out, although I can't wait to get back to work! What I hate so much is I am not allowed to shower as many times as I like! OMG! I so cannot stand my smell! According to the 'pantangs' I only allowed to shower once because the cold water is not good for my recovering body. That is why I am not allowed to drink cold water as well. Haish and with this weather some more! I am so counting down to the end of it!
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Finally!
Finally.......our 2nd Baby Gerl, Arissa Nailah Bte Anis was born to us on 13 Feb 2013, 3 weeks earlier than predicted. Man, my doc is really good at predicting!
Although this time round it seems the waiting period is shorter, the pain still seems endless! Haish....again not going to talk and recollect my memory on the pain but I can promise you, this is going to be the last time! I really, really, REALLY don't want to go through the pain again! (Soul please be reminded again!)
On another note, I really feel blessed to have these 2 small creatures in my life. Even with the pain, I AM grateful to have gotten through it. People keep asking me to have another one just to try for another boy. And I am telling these people, its ok, I already have a boy - Soul.
Our 1st Baby Gerl, seems so in love with her little sister. She can't seem to stop kissing her whenever she can. She is very helpful when it comes to changing diapers. She does not seemed affected that the attention is not all on her anymore. In fact, she seems more independent, at being all left alone to entertain herself. Although there were still some mischiefs on her part. (She was caught drinking someone's left over coke!)
Difference in both girls - Arissa seems more of a sleeper than the eater. Since the first night, she does not seems to want to be fed. Although she does cries, she seems more settled after being wrapped and hold to sleep. I kind of remembered Naira needed to be fed for almost every hour and she refused to be wrapped! But then again it is still too early to see much difference.
I guess in my part, 2 years ago seems so long that I can't remember much of the details to compare. Back then, I just want to get through the pain! So I still have a few more weeks to get through the confinement. I really can't wait to eat and drink anything I want, to be active again, although I won't say to do whatever I want, I really can't wait for my routine to be stabled once more.
Although this time round it seems the waiting period is shorter, the pain still seems endless! Haish....again not going to talk and recollect my memory on the pain but I can promise you, this is going to be the last time! I really, really, REALLY don't want to go through the pain again! (Soul please be reminded again!)
On another note, I really feel blessed to have these 2 small creatures in my life. Even with the pain, I AM grateful to have gotten through it. People keep asking me to have another one just to try for another boy. And I am telling these people, its ok, I already have a boy - Soul.
Our 1st Baby Gerl, seems so in love with her little sister. She can't seem to stop kissing her whenever she can. She is very helpful when it comes to changing diapers. She does not seemed affected that the attention is not all on her anymore. In fact, she seems more independent, at being all left alone to entertain herself. Although there were still some mischiefs on her part. (She was caught drinking someone's left over coke!)
Difference in both girls - Arissa seems more of a sleeper than the eater. Since the first night, she does not seems to want to be fed. Although she does cries, she seems more settled after being wrapped and hold to sleep. I kind of remembered Naira needed to be fed for almost every hour and she refused to be wrapped! But then again it is still too early to see much difference.
I guess in my part, 2 years ago seems so long that I can't remember much of the details to compare. Back then, I just want to get through the pain! So I still have a few more weeks to get through the confinement. I really can't wait to eat and drink anything I want, to be active again, although I won't say to do whatever I want, I really can't wait for my routine to be stabled once more.
Saturday, February 02, 2013
Frustration
Feeling frustrated right now.
Coming to my last trimester. Hate the waiting game. Whats more with Soul not around.
Emotions are running high since I am deprived from so many things. Beginning to feel that life is so unfair. The sacrificies I have to make.....
Coming to my last trimester. Hate the waiting game. Whats more with Soul not around.
Emotions are running high since I am deprived from so many things. Beginning to feel that life is so unfair. The sacrificies I have to make.....
Sunday, January 27, 2013
While Hubby is away.....
Haish......
Soul is away (again!) leaving me and baby girl all on our own! Ok lah, not really on our own cos I still have my mum with us.
But today we are really on our own cos my Mum has got her religious teachings on every sunday. Luckily Baby Gerl is easy especially with her cartoons on. She will just watch the cartoon and entertain herself, which gives me the time to complete my work.
And now she is taking her nap and I have completed my work so maybe I should take a nap!
On another note, thinking about Soul not going to be around for the next whole weeks is giving me nightmares! Cos the last time Soul was away, I had a hard time with Baby Gerl especially the nights. I know she misses him lots and she has no idea how to express it. She keeps getting up in the middle of the night crying! It so breaks my heart! Even during the day she was so clingy! Luckily during that period it was the school holiday so it was still tolerant.
This time around however, I am still left with 2 more weeks of working before I go for my maternity leave. So I am not sure how I am going to handle the lack of sleep for this whole week!
Haisshhh this time I am really wishing that time will fly faster!
Soul is away (again!) leaving me and baby girl all on our own! Ok lah, not really on our own cos I still have my mum with us.
But today we are really on our own cos my Mum has got her religious teachings on every sunday. Luckily Baby Gerl is easy especially with her cartoons on. She will just watch the cartoon and entertain herself, which gives me the time to complete my work.
And now she is taking her nap and I have completed my work so maybe I should take a nap!
On another note, thinking about Soul not going to be around for the next whole weeks is giving me nightmares! Cos the last time Soul was away, I had a hard time with Baby Gerl especially the nights. I know she misses him lots and she has no idea how to express it. She keeps getting up in the middle of the night crying! It so breaks my heart! Even during the day she was so clingy! Luckily during that period it was the school holiday so it was still tolerant.
This time around however, I am still left with 2 more weeks of working before I go for my maternity leave. So I am not sure how I am going to handle the lack of sleep for this whole week!
Haisshhh this time I am really wishing that time will fly faster!
Monday, January 07, 2013
Fifty Shades
Ok I finally finished reading the trilogy e-books of Fifty Shades. I know i know it is so last year, but better late than never!
The only reason I started reading the book was because it seems like alot of peeps I know has read it and there was quite a few shades of comments or reviews about the book that finally intrigue me enough to know what is it all about. (Anyway very free also lah!)
So, when I first started reading the e-book, I know nothing about the characters or how and what the story is about. Ok thats a lie! I know it has some sexual contents BUT not on what kind of sexual contents.
Anyway, when I started reading, I thought the 2 main characters were almost similar to Bella and Edward from Twilight. Both Bella and Ana were shy, no confidence, no sense of fashion and virgins when it comes to relationship. Both Edward (swoons!!!) and Christian were damn too rich too be true, good looking with girls falling on their feet, overprotective kind of guys. Heck, initially I thought it was another vampire falling in love with a mortal kind of story.
However, I was interested really on how the characters evolve in their relationship together. Of course the sexual contents were interesting. I learn a lot about sexual things that I have never known before. It is very interesting how this domineering and submissive sex can be. I would rather however take a vanilla sex anytime than to try out all the pain to get pleasure. But I don't mind my vanilla sex with some chocolate sauce or whip cream ;)
But it was how the relationship between Ana and Christian that kept me reading. In fact I was so into sharing the story with hubby (not the sexual content part lah). But being a guy of course he not interested.
There are certain parts of the book when I feel frustrated reading about the characters. I mean, I can't understand how Ana can be so weak and just refuse to tell Christian off from controlling her especially when it comes to her career wise. When I commented to hubby, all he can say is "She is not like you lah."
Seriously? You mean there are women who likes to be dominated? Of course, I am aware that there are some husbands who does dominate their wives (whether sexually or not, I don't want to know!) And I am aware that there are still wives who are very submissive to their husbands even despite gotten hurt, they are still loyal and submissive. How they can be like that is still a big question to me! Luckily, I live in a world and a generation where women, most of the time have their own rights or almost equal to men. If not, I could not imagine what/how my life would turn out to be!
The only reason I started reading the book was because it seems like alot of peeps I know has read it and there was quite a few shades of comments or reviews about the book that finally intrigue me enough to know what is it all about. (Anyway very free also lah!)
So, when I first started reading the e-book, I know nothing about the characters or how and what the story is about. Ok thats a lie! I know it has some sexual contents BUT not on what kind of sexual contents.
Anyway, when I started reading, I thought the 2 main characters were almost similar to Bella and Edward from Twilight. Both Bella and Ana were shy, no confidence, no sense of fashion and virgins when it comes to relationship. Both Edward (swoons!!!) and Christian were damn too rich too be true, good looking with girls falling on their feet, overprotective kind of guys. Heck, initially I thought it was another vampire falling in love with a mortal kind of story.
However, I was interested really on how the characters evolve in their relationship together. Of course the sexual contents were interesting. I learn a lot about sexual things that I have never known before. It is very interesting how this domineering and submissive sex can be. I would rather however take a vanilla sex anytime than to try out all the pain to get pleasure. But I don't mind my vanilla sex with some chocolate sauce or whip cream ;)
But it was how the relationship between Ana and Christian that kept me reading. In fact I was so into sharing the story with hubby (not the sexual content part lah). But being a guy of course he not interested.
There are certain parts of the book when I feel frustrated reading about the characters. I mean, I can't understand how Ana can be so weak and just refuse to tell Christian off from controlling her especially when it comes to her career wise. When I commented to hubby, all he can say is "She is not like you lah."
Seriously? You mean there are women who likes to be dominated? Of course, I am aware that there are some husbands who does dominate their wives (whether sexually or not, I don't want to know!) And I am aware that there are still wives who are very submissive to their husbands even despite gotten hurt, they are still loyal and submissive. How they can be like that is still a big question to me! Luckily, I live in a world and a generation where women, most of the time have their own rights or almost equal to men. If not, I could not imagine what/how my life would turn out to be!