Exhaustion finally took over. It won over me physically, mentally, emotionally. Slept like a baby last nigght with no weird dreams or whatsoever.
It sux big time when a love you had for someone over 20 years ends and turns into hatred. When all this while you've been fighting together ends up fighting at each other. Whats more you dragged other people in and getting them to fight for you. Its just crazy and hurtful. Please let this be a lesson to all.
Seeing all this happening around us, really helps me to see my relationship with Soul clearly. Can't deny that I always worry that things won't work my way. It makes me see the mistakes that I don't want to repeat the same. Makes me really wants to work harder on our relationships and marriage (to come). So please slap me if you know I'm doing the wrong things to Soul. Wahahahaha....
On a happy note, got a big surprise appraisal bonus due to my hardwork last year. Not telling you guys the grade, but believe me it was really hardwork, with perseverence, never giving up, and doing it for the love of doing it for the children. Hmmmm wonder if I could acheive it again this year. Hahahahah greedy greedy..... Can't wait to shop!!!!
P.S. Already sign up a package for our indoor, outdoor wedding shots. So yah the weding is on. Just wait for the date!!!
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Friday, March 14, 2008
Step Up 2
Went to watch Step up 2 yesterday. Honestly, I felt Step up 1 was better but Soul definately enjoy watching it cos of all the dance moveesss. Yes the dance was awesome to watch, but no its not something I enjoy (unless of cos Soul is doing it!)
Yes it was one of Soul's passion in life (b4 he met moi), but I guess Passion is not enough to live by in Singapore. Cos honestly, Arts will never be as big as in other countries. Why? Cos I feel, we are too small (in numbers and sizes) to be BIG. Yes we have the Singapore Idols (Taufik is still the best!!) and yes we might have won the Asian Idol, but face it, we have no HOLLYWOOD to turn to to make it BIG! There is no way you can just be a dancer and be successful in Singapore.
Yes it was one of Soul's passion in life (b4 he met moi), but I guess Passion is not enough to live by in Singapore. Cos honestly, Arts will never be as big as in other countries. Why? Cos I feel, we are too small (in numbers and sizes) to be BIG. Yes we have the Singapore Idols (Taufik is still the best!!) and yes we might have won the Asian Idol, but face it, we have no HOLLYWOOD to turn to to make it BIG! There is no way you can just be a dancer and be successful in Singapore.